I appreciate WordPress
February 22, 2017
My desire to be a writer began in December 2009. I had a great encouragement by a good friend who had been published. She led me step by step here to WordPress and showed me how to begin a blog. Thank you CJ.
I did a few, very few blogs since then, but WordPress has remained steady and sure and here – a wonderful constant. Something that I could count on.
In 2015 I finished my book and in the process of sending out queries to agents.
On WordPress I am also finding a wonderful community of fellow self healers, fun seekers, dog lovers, and self-aware great writers.
So, WordPress, please continue being my beacon, anchor and thank you for sticking around all these years!
“You Can Miss Something (One) and Not Want It Back”
June 6, 2016
I woke up crying…sad that I had invested in a life for many years and decided to walk away when it was not all that I had hoped it would be. I don’t blame the other person for the break-up, but I am incredibly sadden by my inability to take better care of myself in that relationship. While I was in the relationship, I did grow and learn how to make myself satisfied in so many ways, yet it was lonely. I was unheard, unseen, for too long, so my sadness stems from me not speaking up and taking better care of myself.
Thus, the tears are because I had a wonderful opportunity to take care of myself in so many better ways than I did and I lost an incredible opportunity.
I know I can not change an individual if they do not want to change. Especially, if they are with me day in and day out and don’t change after I repeatedly expressed my unhappiness.
Material for my second book.
Balance
February 5, 2012
Month two of a new year and the list of items to be completed is growing yet I am trying to keep myself out of judgement and out of the outcome and feelings. The difference being is I am trying to increase the muscle of honoring where I am and not who I need or have to be or accomplish. You know, the difference in human doing and human being.
In fact, with the year beginning in pain and aches, I have been forced to take the extra time and slow down but I am in a state of conflict, I can see that each time I teeter-totter towards the self abuse and push, I breath deeply and balance it with a grain of self acceptance. Thus trying to honor where I am today.
I want to accomplish in this year writing a short story or novela worthy of being published and I want to begin volunteering somewhere I can help make a difference and give me a sense of purpose. I also need to honor my current commitments to organize and streamline the office I do inhabit two to three days a week. The judgement comes in the first two items I want to accomplish this year I have wanted to get to for the last 2 years. And if I keep looking back and beating myself up for not accomplishing before keeps me in the conflict. So the strive for balance continues and I hope to use this platform as a way to keep myself in check,with out judgement!!
A Life Conflicted 